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I was an optomistic young woman, always believing that things would happen because I believed in them, that people would be their best if only they had the chance. I am far from that place now, and it saddens me. I am struggling, things are difficult, and the world is so out of my control. I'm building walls to protect myself, but it still doesn't seem to be enough. I know that in order to finally get to the place where I want to get, there will be pain and hurt along the way. I thought it would all be easier. But it is not.